guysanddogs: Chris Messina
Perhaps she should get a Tumblr. Sorry about that. -Mel
My employer held a bake-off today, which was good because so many cookies! I was sitting with two women on my team, and I asked if either of them know who [woman at bake-off] is. Coworker J said she’s not sure, but she once overheard her in the kitchen telling someone that she’s FINALLY getting married after ten years with her boyfriend. Ten years! Can you believe that? Coworker S joined in with more incredulous mocking. Who sticks around that long?! etc. etc. I though J knew I’d been with M for that long but maybe she forgot. That and the popping of my TG fantasy bubble are making for a shitty kind of day. Time for more cookies.
Today I am totally fixated on Trivia Guy. I think he may not be into me after all. Or my window of sexportunity closed, if it was ever open to begin with.
On Friday I texted him to wish him a fun weekend in Scranton. He replied very quickly to say no, that’s next weekend; he’s at some work party right now. “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do!,” I said. He replied, “Booked a hotel room tonight so I could.” And that was the end of that. All weekend I anticipated that he might contact me but he didn’t. Yesterday was trivia day. Late yesterday afternoon I got a text from him that said he’s heading up to the bar early to eat dinner if I’d like to join. Of course I was in the shower and didn’t look at my phone for about an hour after that. I replied to tell him so and that I wish I hadn’t missed it.
Then he texted to say the bartender said trivia is canceled due to some other event going on. We had a back-and-forth about that for a while until finally another person on our team confirmed that trivia is on. Then I realized TG had texted all of us about the potential cancellation and I wonder if he sent the dinner invite to the whole group as well.
So I went to trivia—legs shaved, makeup applied—expecting him to be as flirtatious as last week and hoping to get lucky afterwards. And … he was not. He was friendly but he’s friendly to everyone. On the walk home he didn’t walk near me or make any attempt to talk to me/tease me/nickname me. I attempted to flirt with him a little but it didn’t seem to stick.
This is killing me. I am confused and disappointed and paranoid that he’ll fall in love with (or at least start boning) some other woman between now and the next time we see each other. It’s really hard when a guy is friendly and outgoing with everyone, because you can’t tell if they’ve got the hots for you or they’re just treating you the way they treat all people. I feel very close to asking him when he’s gonna invite me over for some quality time (maybe not in those words) but I don’t want to come on too strong and repulse him. I’ll probably just continue making myself sick pining for him.
Zoe Barnes is my least favorite character, which probably says something about how harshly I judge women compared to men. Kate Mara has an abnormally low front hairline (she has a threehead). But I’m developing a bit of a Robin Wright obsession.
A Loudoun woman out for a run after a bad day at work is hit by a flying deer.
Apparently a decent number of women I know are buying $200 ballet flats? Tieks by Gavrieli—which I have never even heard of before—is in my Facebook news feed multiple times a day.
CBS Sunday Morning just featured a story about a WWII veteran who learned to read at the age of 89.
"You have a bitchy resting face."
- that insufferable coworker with the 2 year old, who is pregnant again